Five days in Katoomba to start my Diploma in Sound Healing with two of my soul sisters.
I had been feeling that I was losing my way. I could feel that this life was not my best life. And, I had started to feel trapped and fearful. I was no longer standing in my truth.
I set the intention for the course to focus on healing my heath. I need my big arse belly to go.
The journey I took, after setting the intention, has been mind blowing. Mind blowing and multi-faceted.
My big arse belly, which I love deeply, is the result of living in the stress response my whole life – cortisol substituting blood – through my body. It is also the result of emotional eating because of trauma and the resulting belief that I am not worthy of deep love.
I am worthy of deep love. And I love my big arse belly because she is my inner child and because she has carried me to this point. Because I love her so much, I am going to liberate her. She will no longer be the prisoner of my emotions because I am worthy of deep love, and that starts with me loving myself deeply.
The full moon is here. A powerful full moon in Scorpio. Love and transformation.
I release self-loathing.
I release my beliefs that I am not worthy, that I am not good enough, that I am not deserving.
I release my fears about not having enough because I believed I was not good enough.
I release my inner girl, my big arse belly, and send her to fly freely.
I had forgotten the things that I was living last year. I had forgotten that I deserve abundance, freedom and deep spiritual divine love. I had forgotten that I was worthy of only the very best this life has to offer. I reset this intention here. I am worthy. I am love. I am peace. I am abundance.
I release my outdated beliefs and I reclaim my worthiness.
How did I come here …
We set our intentions and sealed them with sound.
We discovered our blocks through sound.
We transformed our blocks through sound.
We reformed ourselves through sound.
We reclaimed ourselves through sound.
And, we shared space with likeminded people, all at different points on the path, and worked with beautifully souled facilitators holding and nurturing the space, and found ourselves free to explore beneath the layers, peeling them back and discarding them one at a time. And, my soul sisters and I continued the healing and processing together every night at home.
Healing requires intention, safety, support, honesty, trust and a shitload of hard work. It requires owning your own healing whilst someone facilitates a safe space. Sound can be that space; the vibrations and the tones shifting and dissolving those redundant narratives we have held dear for too long.
I have learned so much in the last five days. I have made some small decisions regarding my way forward. And, I am finally ready to stay in my truth amidst the noise of every day life.
Om Shanti 🙏🏻