It’s 7:30am. I’ve been awake for two hours.
I meditate every night before I go to sleep. And, what I mean by that, is that I am asleep within minutes of putting the meditation on; I usually don’t get beyond the first few breaths and comfortable position lol. So, I also meditate when I wake. This morning I didn’t because I was lathered in kisses from an excited puppy before my eyes were even open. However, I still practiced gratitude and set my intentions for today.
It’s a glorious way to start the day: in calm and at peace, lavished by love.
I have set today’s work, put the washing on, stripped the bed, organised my healing work, done the dishes, watered the plants, and dissolved the emotional charges on my failed IVF procedures (started yesterday).
The benefits of doing IVF:
~ I was enabled to support others in their journey
~ I have no regrets about not trying
~ I felt the excitement of selecting donors, loved the many needles, loved the routine, loved the process, loved learning, loved the promise
~ greater empathy for the struggles of pregnancy and miscarriage
~ I experienced another version of myself
The drawbacks of doing IVF:
~ I didn’t give birth
~ I miscarried
~ I was a different person for a few years
~ I struggled in alone-ness
The benefits of not holding the pregnancy and giving birth:
~ I just worry about me and my fur kids
~ I travel
~ I complete learning courses
~ I meet new and incredible people all of the time
~ I am free
~ I am soul happy and fulfilled
~ I started my businesses
~ I reignited my passion for teaching through tutoring
~ I still impact a whole heap of people’s lives positively
~ I am healing all of my baggage and have the time to do it
~ I can be selfish
The drawbacks of not holding the pregnancy and giving birth:
~ I have not been a birth mum this incarnation; however, I am a mother (albeit a bad one a lot of the time) to Amanda and a mother spirit to countless others
I am grateful for the experience, and I am equally grateful I didn’t become a birth mother.
I am feeling a deep sense of blessing, love and gratitude again. This is such a powerful method for bringing balance.
I need to dissolve the charge on the miscarriage. That will be my next venture. Some of it will be similar, but I need to look at the balance of support in that one too. The universe always provides.
Now, I’ve blogged too, and it’s only 7:52am.
Have a great day!