I have been doing a LOT of reading lately. I am trying to manifest abundance, regularly set and stick to intentions, and mostly, trusting the universe to break connections to my old life. I do not want to go back to the life I lived that was not really any sort of happy life.
Much easier to say than do. And, I'm a nerd. I don't like getting things wrong.
I know that I have to stay the course; what I feed, I create.
I want my healing business to succeed. I want people to feel safe enough to embrace the life that waits for them. I want the same for myself.
I want to be a published author. I want financial freedom so that I can live this life without the constant worry of money and making ends meet.
I am grateful for everything that the universe has already supplied to me to empower this vision.
I had a test of all of this last night. I have a practise healing session today, postponed from last Monday because I was exhausted after working in a school as well as with all of my clients. I also received two offers of casual work. I declined both, putting the healing session and my client first, even though I know she would understand if I had to postpone again.
I went to sleep debating whether I had made the right choice. My savings are gone. The only money I am bringing in is from my tutoring business. I use it for food, petrol, and in the next fortnight, it will have to pay all of my fortnightly bills too. This is overwhelming.
I woke up this morning at 7; the natural time my body wakes. But for work, I need to be up by 630. Interesting in itself. Work makes me go against my body's natural rhythms. I opened my emails, only one, and Reid Tracy's Hay House newsletter was there. He wrote that the distinction between dreamers and successful people, is that successful people take action. That's it, they take action.
I have chosen to interpret that, in line with feeding that which I want to see thrive, as having made the right decision. For today. I have been offered work later in the week; I have accepted that single day. It makes next week's target more do-able.
We shall see. Any which way, I'm about to learn a lesson lol.
Trusting is not easy. This is the first step.