Without India and without the trauma of the investigation, I would not be here.
Without here, I would not have snorkelled.
Without snorkelling, I would not have realised I fat shame myself and sometimes permit myself to live from fear.
Without one thing, the other would not have existed.
I am in a period of transformation. Not a period of change as such, but a period of deeper awareness of who I am and what I want.
I need water.
I need like minds.
I need difference.
I need happiness, more like bliss.
I need movement.
I need … all of this.
I am about to fall asleep in one of the most beautiful places I have ever journeyed to. My soul is alive.
Today I walked near the ocean.
Today I walked in a forest.
Today I loved. I swang. I chatted. I held a hand. I hugged different people. I felt. I soared. I sparked.
a single day.
I am blessed beyond belief. This damaged girl from Campbelltown has empowered herself to really live, to discover what centuries of mystics have shared … life is to be lived.
Life is not to be worked.
Life is gratitude, blessings, sunsets, oceans, rivers, properties, like minds, lost goggles, lost childhoods, lost minds, a swing, new experiences, new friends, profound connection, hearty conversation.
What a perfect day and perfect trip!
Without the darkness, this light would not have come.