Creating the life you want

I feel a bit arrogant using that title. Guru Tina reporting for duty … pfft. I can be an imbecile. 

It’s been 24 hours since waking yesterday and deciding to take the reins on my own life back. As predicted by several friends, after the excitement of yesterday’s decision, knowing it is right, fear is creeping in. 

I am acknowledging it. And, I am releasing it. But, still feeling it. 

Lol. 

Not knowing is invigotating as well as terrifying. When I reflect on this year, that I have been calling the worst year of my life, I also realize that it has been one of the best. 

I’ve travelled – twice. New Zealand and India, both amazing trips in very different ways. I’ve met some amazing people this year; inspiring, loving, genuine people. I’ve fought for myself, and really seen, for the first time ever, my value and my beauty. I discovered the importance of writing and controlling my own narrative, and not letting systems with faceless people govern my narrative. I started developing a business plan. I was very effective and successful in my roles at school, and in my classroom. I’ve been an exemplary teacher this year. I’ve built my home and my family, now complete. I’ve reconnected on a deep level with friends I adore and with myself. 

It has been the year of the Phoenix. 

And next year will consolidate this growth, awareness and passion I possess for all of this life. Next year, the warrior will temper her battle instincts to embrace the nurturing aspects of her psyche. Yep. The worst year as well as one of the best. 

Paradoxes. 

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