As you all know, I’m a firm believer in signs. The signs in my life point towards a different path for me. As you all also know, I’m a bit of a chicken lol.
I’m spending my weekend plotting my future. When I was younger, I would just jump and have faith. These days, I have the faith that I will be okay but am scared to jump.
The big decision focuses on next year, and whether I request to become part time or take leave without pay and apply to schools for casual work.
I do know that I yearn for a different quality of life. I want some control over the hours that I work. I need to have time when I am not tired or working to catch up with friends and family, and to have a healthier work life balance.
My first assignment in my Masters in Holistic Counseling focuses on the role of cells in our health. Ultimately, stress in the environment impacts our health significantly. Teaching today, for me, is frenetic and as a result, stressful. Add to that parent complaints and growing accountability with regards to admin duties and it isn’t what I want my life to look like.
I need to, and have, given myself permission to live a peaceful and quietly successful life, still empowering others to be their best selves living their best lives, but not the way I have been.
And that is okay.
I trust that all will be okay.