Just sometimes you can see or feel the universe at work. Just sometimes, and when you do, it is magical.
My anxiety has been up this week, quite significantly. Every moment, every conversation, every decision, has been agonizing.
I have a new found understanding of what suffering with anxiety is like. I do not wish it on anyone. Mostly because it is debilitating and/or exhausting depending on how hard you fight it. And either way, because it steals your life from you. I’m working and for the most part, I’m functioning at work, but my life is gone.
I can’t do both.
And the resolution I had hoped would come before the holidays, allowing me to recover and reconnect, has not come.
I have, at least, another two to three weeks of uncertainty ahead of me. And my fear is that the toll from my anxiety will be larger as time goes on.
I’m open to strategies. I’m open to try.
Yesterday I booked in to attend an Alana Fairchild workshop in Berry in May. By myself. Huge.
And last night I messaged a friend to let her know that Alana was returning to Berry. She replied. And talk turned to her business in Body Talk. I did some quick reading and I booked in for this afternoon.
This will not do the session justice. It was amazingly empowering. My anxiety dissolved during the session. It’s back but it is minimal and a different type – more like a nervous excitement. It might not be anxiety.
Anyway, Body Talk is not necessarily well known as an alternative therapy. My practitioner, my friend, is very accomplished. I went in open and without expectation.
I felt it working immediately.
The practitioner utilises sections within the body, energy and tapping (on the head and on the sternum) to ‘reprogram’ the way the body is working. I could feel my body talking to Mel and I could feel her responses.
I know it sounds nonsensical. If someone was telling me this, I think I would be dubious. But … I experienced it. Immediately. And I left whole. My body felt together. My voice was stronger. I felt open again.
I’m sold. Bugger medicine for healing the soul.
If anyone in Sydney wants to give it a try, email me and I’ll send you Mel’s number (firstname.lastname@example.org).