The Anxiety Rollercoaster

I was better. 

And then I dreamed that I had a baby. But I didn’t give birth to it. But it was mine. And it took me a while to figure out that it couldn’t be. 

And then the day started. I slowly drifted backwards. Exhausted after working all day yesterday. Nervous that the holidays are coming and there is no resolution on the issue that has caused my anxiety. 

Worried. Knowing I shouldn’t be worried. Breathing deeply. Staying present. 

And it’s so funny. At a time of anxiety I feel the most competent I have ever been in my classroom. I am an amazing teacher. 

Bizarre. Paradox. Irony. Totes ridiculous. 

Maybe the universe’s way of reassuring me that I will always be okay. 

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