One of the first things I ask people or say to people suffering from anxiety/stress is what can you control?
This past week one of my greatest issues has been that I have no control in a situation that I am in. The shock caused trauma which led to severe anxiety that resulted in some time away from everything.
As a result, today I find that I have regained my fighting spirit and have reentered the world of the living – to a point. I’m still unsettled in the belly but the nausea that I have felt intensely since last Thursday has passed. And I have taken my own advice and taken control over some things in my life. Unrelated to the cause of my recent anxiety but pertinent issues in my life.
My car broke a little this week. Suffice to say, the love of my life is being moved on lol. I can control that decision. And I can let go of something I love (I know it’s only a car, but it’s my dream car that’s now costing me a fortune).
It was important to regain some control over something. It reminded me that I have choices and that I am a human being. Systems and processes are dangerous things when they fail to protect those that need protection.
And I have made a pact with myself that I am going to fight systems and processes that are just wrong.
Starting with my beloved Tiggy.