I am a firm believer that if you have a problem or question that you are looking for an answer to, if you go to bed thinking you will wake up with an answer. 

I have forgotten the answer I received this morning. I didn’t expect that lol. 

I am still contemplating whether to continue with my fostering application. I have a concern that I have not moved forward enough from the IVF processes in the sense that they eclipsed my life for so many years. I think I know who I am but I have changed and I wonder if that change is still speedily evolving. I guess, I question who I might be now. Making big decisions when I’m uncertain is probably not a good idea. 

Looks like the answer came back to me when I started writing 😉 gotta love writing for its ability to unlock the subconscious. 

And it’s not that I don’t know who I am really, more I don’t completely know what I want my life to look like. In a sense, I have an opportunity to rebirth myself (obviously I’ve healed enough to use that language lol). 

Who do I want to be?

What do I want to do? 

I think more time to evolve/heal is required.