So, mum and I were talking, have several times in the last couple of weeks, and she kept saying, just wait to see what happens, and like every child I was armed with my reasons why I wasn’t going to wait for anything anymore. IVF made me wait for year after year, and I stopped living.
And as you know, in the last week I have made decision after decision after decision. Life will be lived. Goddammit it will be lived. Lol.
I woke this morning with an epiphany. A scroll was running through my mind. Everything that I want to do. And I remembered I work full time. And I’m going to be a foster mum. And I’m starting a business. And I’m studying. And I want to study more to add to my business.
And my doctorate is going to have to wait.
Because last night I really got stuck into coming up with a research question. And I am happy with the direction.
So bring on my ten year plan. Five if I’m not successful with my foster care application.
Mothers are always right. Mother figures are always right. I thought I’d learned this.
The reminder hasn’t hurt.
Enjoy the heat that is this long weekend in Australia. Thirty degrees at 10am in Thirlmere.
Writing day today.